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| Blood in my semen, A wake-up story.I'm 40 now, 41 on July 22nd. Four kids, the oldest 16 and the youngest 5. I rarely blog about my family because there is too much that is personal, so I mostly stick to topics of what I think about. Speaking of a topic.....
I like to wail to porn on the internet. My wife is Catholic and abstinence is the best form of birth control, both of us agreeing 4 kids are enough. She's cool with me satisfying myself, so am I, so I take care of business myself in the off season. My sex drive is HUGE, and hers is *I don't want to get pregnant again*, so what we have works for us. WE are very careful not to get her pregnant again. Xvideos.com, Pornzapp.com, and Frostwire is all a man needs to fufill his desires, so sets the status quo. I have potent sperm, condoms are out of the question, and c'est la vie.
I like to wail to porn on the internet, and catch it in a bunch of toilet paper that goes on the toilet afterwards. Usually in the morning when the wood is the hardest, before my shower, and after she has left for work. She wakes up way before I do, and my job is to get the 5 year old to daycare before I have to be to work at 9 , and she picks him up after she gets off work, which means she gets off work way before I do. De facto ritual for years now.
The 14th of this month, I was wailing in the morning, nothing out of the ordinary, but when I came my stuff was pink. Freaked me out.
I told her about it that evening, my hematospermia, and we had a long discussion about how I needed to go to a doctor. I hadn't been to a doctor in years, and I was scared enough to find one on my health insurance in my area, and I made an appointment.
My appointment was on the 18th, and it did not go very well. The nurse took my blood pressure, freaked out, took another reading, got an automatic machine, freaked some more, and got the head nurse. She took my reading, and panicked as well. They hooked me to a machine, then hooked me to an EKG machine, got readings, and the doctor when he got in bitched me out about my high blood pressure in a nice way. He wrote me a script for Atenolol. I've been on it for a week, and have another appointment for this Friday. My readings were way high, unregulated for years, enough to snap me back to reality.
Oh, I am not a dummy. I have a machine that runs on 6 AA batteries that checks BP, and displays systolic and dystolic pressure, as well as heart rate. I did my research online, and KNEW I had HPB. It wasn't until my stuff came out pink that I was REALLY worried. I've wailed the dude since I was 11, and never has it been pink. That scares the shit out of you. I won't tell you my numbers because you would freak as well.
This left me afraid to wail anymore. I waited a day, then got another pink sample. This was still before my doctors appointment on the 18th, and four days from the original pink sample it was white with a few specks of maroon. Before I had my appointment it was clear again, but my apprehension was now in place and I told the doctor everything.
I researched online, and found my own answers, but needed a doctor to get the meds to lower my BP. He says the two were unrelated, that I was wailing too hard and prolly broke a blood vessel. I say the HBP helped to rupture the blood vessel, which caused the blood in my semen. I wailed this morning, and it was NORMAL white, yet I am apprehensive that my stuff could be pink again at anytime.
Nah.
I'm on meds now.
One side effect he told me about was the inability to get an erection, as the meds lowers my heart rate and I may not be able to get a woody, and if so, let him know and he'll give me some thing to fix that. Yeah right, I still get morning wood every day. No problem wailing for me.
HOWEVER. One side-effect I noticed in the paperwork was unusual dreams. OMG, that has been so true for me. I'll have to tell him about that this Friday. I have 3-5 dreams per night, vivid lucid dreams, stark reality. Wyrd dreams.
One dream my wife committed suicide, left notes, but we couldn't find her body, and I found her mummified corpse 6 months later, a real wake-you-up-in-the-middle-of-the-night-in-a-cold-sweat-thriller, complete with real FBI agents handling the case. Another was how I had a time machine, traveled back in time to meet my biological mother when she was young, had sex with her, and became the father of her child which would turn out to be me. That is a paradox, a violation of physics, and very disturbing, because my mom was actually pretty hot when she was young, even though I have never seen ANY pics of her when she was young. WE were estranged when I was 3, and I have no memory of her, so all these dreams are figments of my imagination. Another dream left me contemplating how to plant the fields of a huge plantation that I was in charge of, with me riding a huge tractor, a green John Deere, and dictating orders to others that listened with what I have to say. Another had me working on race cars, in a pit crew, and cars would come in as in a Nascar race needing fixed, and we'd fix them and they'd zoom back out. What's wyrd of all is that I could smell the smells and see the colors, as if the meds enchance lucid dreams. There are several other dreams, all lucid, all in color with odors and realities intertwined, and I'm left to dwell on the impressions I feel after the fact.
I'd write in a dream journal when I wake up at night, at least 3-5 times after a lucid dream, but I feel these dreams are medication related, and I want to ask my doctor first. I wake up every 2-3 hours, another dream experienced. Wyrd.
Peace.
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| Briefly....A review.The new cell phone.....
It's a Samsung Highnote, full of features that have my head twisted. Music player, GPS navigation, 1 gb memory upgradeable to 16gb on a MicroSD card, 2mp camera with camcorder, Bluetooth, and all sorts of other crap I have to digest.
I got it tonight after work, and activated it, and goodbye to the over 3 year old flip phone fritzing out with no features. It's in my sleeping pants pocket right now, as I'm getting ready for bed, but it's playing a shuffle of 6 songs (mp3) I transferred from my Linux laptop via USB without a hitch, no software cd required. It'll be a good way to mess with the people at work, setting it to music mode and starting a song in my left front jeans pocket and have it playing when I go into the break room, as they'll wonder around where the music is coming from. Short lived trick, but good for the moment. I think I'll go to review sites and plug the sucker, even though I haven't even figured out all the features yet.
So far, I am impressed with the little guy. It's a slider and has a nice feel to it. Slide it up, and the key pad is exposed, nice keys, good tactile feel and response. Slide it down, and it has speakers built into the top, with settings in a menu to adjust sound qualities, and in my opinion, a solid stand alone mp3 player. That's as far as I got tonight reading through the manual and tinkering with settings, yet I know it has a many features that are changeable to the user's preferences. I also know there is a program for Linux that's called Bitpim that can hack menus and what not. If this phone is compatible or not remains to be seen, and I'm not downloading it until I feel comfy with all the phones settings. Only an idiot would hack a new cell phone without doing his research first. I read in the manual tonight about Samsung and locked phones, and have already seen on Ebay UNLOCKED phones for sale, and I know what that means. Jesus, I have already UNLOCKED Xboxes and LOCKED them many times over, it's just a matter of software and hardware and proprietory code and open source code. An article on the internet revealed that a similar version of my new phone is being released in China but not approved by the FCC yet for US distribution, yet is running a Linux OS and DAMNED if it isn't the SAME EXACT display as my phone, albeit the colors are different.
So should phone owners be able to hack their phones, and be able to hack other friend's phones, or maybe even just show them how to do it, if it means saving them subscription fees to online services they could REALLY get for free?
This phone will do internet surfing for a FEE, a monthly charge. They record KB usage, and bill you for it. If it was hacked to find WIFI and access accordingly, that would violate their terms of service, and they'd terminate your service. WE are stuck in a jam with the way things work, paying out the WAZOO for services that COULD be free. Damn it all. I have a new phone that I have to pay for, and if I want to access the internet on it, it is an extra fee. Shouldn't I be able to link to my home computer somehow that ALREADY has internet access and use that resource (that I ALREADY pay for) without being double billed for internet access?
Cell phones and internet access, hmm. Why pay twice (double) for the same thing?
I'm done for now. Going to bed. At least the sucker plays mp3s for free, that I can transfer from my PC, that I've legally ripped from Cds that I own. Or something like that, cuz I'm confused as you are.
End of Part One.
Peace.
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| Catching up...Ooops.....Seems I missed a day or two. *Smile*
Well, during my absence I've been a busy lil camper. Besides going on a quilting rampage, I also learned how to mod XBOXes. Seriously, the thing is nothing more than a 733 mhz processor with 64 mb of ram and a 8 gb hard drive. I had one in a closet from years ago, torn apart in pieces because the dvd tray was broken. See, us men save broken stuff for a good reason, and this is a primary example. I had bought another one for 129 bucks years ago as a replacement, but Ben and Gabby outgrew it (meaning they played and/or solved most of the games available for it), so it went to Spud and he's been playing Legos Star Wars and other games. You can get used XBOX games at the video game place for like 3 for 10 bucks, and yes, the unit is obsolete, meaning they don't make them any more and quite developing games for it. Software developers are working on the newer units, like the 360 and PS3 and WII, and selling the games for 50-60 bucks apiece, which is where the money is at.
So I dug out this old broken unit and did research. Hmmm, what the heck is hotswapping? What is fatx filesystem, ndure, and unleashx dashboard? What is xboxhdm? Being curious, I had to answer these questions, and I did. Since I'm 100% linux now, these tricks were easy to learn, and I must chuckle at the irony of putting linux on a piece of hardware made by Microsoft.
To be sure, the thing is no longer just a obsolete gaming system. Now it is a full blown media center, running a hacked dashboard and executing emulators for other obsolete gaming systems, such as the N64 and the Playstation. Roms are freely available on the net, (and YES I do have an original copy of each game:), so suddenly older media is reduced to digital information. Spud, who was born after Spyro the Dragon for the PS1 was a hit, and is now 5, has rescued 23 dragons in a game he would otherwise have never even known about. Try to find a copy of Spyro at your local game place, because it's virtually impossible.
Besides emulating every game system every made, the thing can search the home network for mp3s, videos, and pics. Wow, that's cool, and the visualizations XBMC produces are better than the 360's. Yes, it even has a 360 skin for a dashboard, but I thought it too eerie to be emulating a modern game system, too wyrd for my taste. Well, since it has a built in ethernet port, you connect a cable to it and it becomes a TV based web browser, simply hooking up a USB keyboard and mouse through a 4-port USB hub. Surfing the web on a XBOX on any TV? Who would've thought? Of course, I installed a full version of linux on it, Xebian distro, but I didn't like that much because it cost 2gb of hard drive space and installed itself as an image file, meaning I couldn't figure out how to install new software (gotta have flash to watch youtube!), and never bothered trying the 4-6 other distros that are designed for the XBOX.
Needless to say I told my cousin about my modding escapades, and he came over with his and we modded it as well. Of course, Spud started playing my reincarnated XBOX more than his stock one, so I modded his as well. Then cousin bought one off Ebay, and it got modded, and I just bought another one off Ebay with 2 more controllers and 5 games, and of course it will get modded too. The thing that is all the rage now is to plop a huge 150-300gb hd in them and copying them full of games, mp3s, dvds, and what not, making it a stand alone Media Center. Good choice for an obsolete piece of hardware. Easy as pie to do. Eventually I'll write my own tutorial on how to do it, because most of the tuts out there are a tad confusing. Ben got a 360 for christmas, and he loves it, and I've been telling him I'm gonna mod it next, and he's threatened me with death if I lay a finger on it. *smile*
Speaking of the 360, I fixed my first one a few weeks ago. If you know of anyone with one, you know they are prone to fail from "The Red Ring Of Death", and IF it's still under warrenty, Microsoft will fix it for free, but if not, it costs 140.00 for them to fix it. Ben's cousin had one, no longer under warrenty, so it fell into my lap to repair. I got the satisfaction of tearing one down to the motherboard, and learned how one is put together. The 360 was designed to suffer from heat exhaustion, because MS trimmed down the heat sinks to make room for the DVD tray, and the RROD is a heat related component failure. I read online how to take 8 pennies and wrap 2 in electrical tape and where the 4 chips are that are prone to overheating. So for 8 cents I fixed a xbox 360. Feedback from the cousin was disbelief, but his 360 is still working fine under heavy use, and he (his mom) saved 140.00. Amazing, but true.
Next up, Karaoke on your PC. It's called Ultrastar, and they have a version for Windoze and Linux, modeled after Singstar for the PS2. It's a hoot.
Of course, everyone loves to sing along with songs in their car, but are you brave enough to actually get rated on how well you sing? If you have a microphone for your pc, get the software and test out your ability in the privacy of your own home, with only family members laughing at you. Strangely enough, I do fairly well, mid-amateur range, when I always suspected I was tone deaf. There is a slight catch, however, since it is a piece of free software, and that is that they can't give out songs due to copyright. However, other sites have the .txt files (check out Ultrastarstuff.com) that are free to download, and you have to supply your own mp3s. Not really a problem when you can karaoke to your OWN favorite genre, and not just a pre-bundled pack of commercial songs. That said, I made up a pack of 8 songs, from Avril to Linkin Park to Pink to the Eagles, and I tried them out. Gabby tried them out, and sorry to say, unless she gets formal training, she'll never be on American Idol. *smile* Yes, I trashed my 12 year old's scores, so it's off at my leisure to build more song packs to practice with. It's fun, it's family oriented, and it'll tell you if you should pursue a singing career or not. For me, it's not.
Peace.
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| I'm Back. 
That's MY moon, taken several years ago, dug up out of ancient history, a file in my Xanga picture storage area. I felt it fitting tonight, having currently pissed off all the ones I love.
I'll admit tonight it is the end of the Self Dynasty. My own will-power alone will affect the needed changes, allowing you, the E-reader, to insert your tongue in my butt-crack and lick heartily, grossing out when you get a Klingon.
(There is a joke in there about the Enterprise circling Uranus in search of Klingons, but I busted it real bad....)
I'm back. Again.
IT WILL take a while to produce a normal blog again, but that's OK, because the Dynasty is over and the computer has it's updates and will re-boot soon, leaving the rest of you to guess my next move. You're gonna have to get your dose of daily shock value.
Ok, there's a little left on the spoon that you didn't get....c'mon, lick the spoon, get all your medicine. Alright. You got it, give it time to work.
I made 29 quilts in 2008, from scratch to completion, sold a few, and gave the rest away. I acquired two treadle machines, and sewed several quilts accordingly. I sucked it in, breaking a phenom that only women can sew. Alright, that is odd, but I did it. A few doubt my masculinity.
Remember where to put your tongue.
Peace.
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